I cannot handle this stress anymore. I am literally breaking down. My damn sister is so fucking irritable and bitchy, I can’t deal with it. I understand she’s pregnant. I also understand she has a mood/personality disorder. But what did I ever do to deserve to be treated like crap? I’m just plain and sick and tired of it. Someday I’m going to go off on her and it isn’t going to be pretty.

I was just in her room to give her back the pillow “I stole” (a pillow of Kristen’s, that she gave to my mom, in which my mom let me USE), and she goes, “I don’t want it now, it probably smells like you”. Yet, ya know, she was bitching about wanting it back in return of my heating pad. WHICH I need. My back aches so bad. I can’t stand it.

She also can’t understand the concept that just because I’m stressed out, and I “sit here and do nothing”, so I can’t possibly be stressed. Since, you know, I’m not showing any sings. Just because I don’t put my stress/anxieties/bitchiness onto other people, doesn’t mean I’m not going through it.

She really needs to get a grip on things. Or else I’m going to walk out of her life for good. I can’t stand it when she’s like this! Goddamn.